it sucks when things start going downhill at the mere start of the year. it's only been 10days into the new year of 2008 and things are spinning out of control.
i thank God that school hasnt been bad because i have the greatest og in the entire school so splitting into classes really just pushed me down one notch. it's still endurable since the class ppl are ok and i still see the rest of the greatest people around. they're still there for me to laugh at and whack and bond whenever i see them. so yeah.
it sucks though, when you have to face crap at the start of the year. i thought i would be prepared for it. i thought finding out before hand would have put me at an advantage, would help me not to break down and ease the thought. it's still as hard as before, still hurts like anything. why? why now? why into the start of this year. why couldnt 2007 be the end of a crappy emo year. this year is starting out so bad with everything falling apart.
i've been stabbed and not collapsed and now stabbed a second time but not collapsed yet.
to hate, is an easy job. to love (as a neighbour) , is a possible job.
to accept, is a difficult job. to welcome, is the toughest job.
it's a terrible feeling when everything's so surreal and you dont know who to turn to. ppl are always there for you, it's whether you want to accept their help to shoulder burden and tears. the challenge lies in oneself, to overcome the dilemma.
the greatest nightmare of my life, the event that i've lived in fear for the past dozen and two years, is occurring on the day that is supposed to be the best day of 08.
and i dont know if i'll make it thru that day.
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