can you smell that brand new year?

embarking on the journey of the new year, many resolutions come to mind. A's of course remaining almost at the top of the priority ladder, but for me, the top rung of the ladder is and will remain as God - that after the revival, the hunger for His word would be purely mind over body and not simply let each passing day go by.

2008 has flown by with each day crossing before your very eyes but us being lazy people thinking that time is aplenty have just wasted a year away. the year's been filled with too many hurts, regrets, distractions and "what-ifs" that i'm glad to close that chapter. yet all those fun memories with the youths, 0908batchmates, schoolmates and even special people, have been sent in as a reminder that i'm not all alone for it is not the load that breaks you down; it is the fact that you carry it alone. the final day of 2008 was indeed memorable and i thank God for every moment of it from the revision to thanksgiving service and citadel-ing/saboteur-ing/bridging (and even that small attempt for puerto rico) thru the night. all i can say is that, everything is in His hands and i will accept the outcome of it all.

the many insightful conversations have brought me back from cloud9 into cold, hard reality. i don't want history to repeat itself, but yet it's that longing for a replacement to soothe that beckons. so maybe reality isn't all that cold and hard but rather sweet. there must be a reason as to why God places people in our lives, to carry us through that valley and help us up that mountain. sometimes when we think we're just walking alongside a peaceful ravine, He places someone there to just in case - a sign that He cares. and as those who walk with the Lord will always reach their destination, i will be sure in it.

i thus resolve to make 2009 a better year.

i like fullstops.
they give and end and tinge of finality.
no more continuations.
the end.