III.

things in the past, things yet unseen, wishes and dreams that are yet to come true...

i wish i could have gone for churchcamp and be spiritually rejuvenated. but yet, i wouldn't trade the world for the sweetest times. thirteen is what you need to feel warmth and i felt God's blessing in a whole new way. this week seems so disjointed and i miss the noise & clatter of home.

QT pointed out that God has a wise purpose in letting us grow old and weak:

“God has planned the strength and beauty of youth to be physical. But the strength and beauty of age is spiritual. We gradually lose the strength and beauty that is temporary so we’ll be sure to concentrate on the strength and beauty which is forever. And so we’ll be eager to leave the temporary, deteriorating part of us and be truly homesick for our eternal home. If we stayed young and strong and beautiful, we might never want to leave.” - J. Robertson McQuilkin

but what if someone doesn't want to grow old and weak because it means losing control? what if someone fights back with willpower so great it defeats the power of medicine? what if sheer might comes from the mind alone? i think we're blacklisted for life. i'm tired of caring because it zaps all my energy and the outcome is zilch. i give up fighting back too.

i've gotta refocus and get priorities back into perspective. and so i draw strength and comfort from Your Word.

i promise that wherever you may go,
wherever life may lead you,
with all my heart I'll be there too.