flippin' your fins, you don't get too far

stuck in a world where everything's inextricably intertwined. you find yourself tearing apart when you try to extricate yourself.

i'm at a loss of words, simply overwhelmed. sometimes i wonder how much stronger i can be, maybe i'll shock myself with the strength of the facade i've built over these years. i wonder what ever happened to the innocence i had in the past, one that allowed me to verbalize my feelings. i guess everyone grows up one day, and i have. i've grown a wall so thick that sticks and stones won't penetrate. wait, maybe they do.. just that my life has now become a masquerade. i can smile at a snap of a finger and tell you that everything's alright. when it's not. i can reach a breaking point, but still remain strong enough to not break. maybe you admire my strength, but i don't. i miss the old me, i miss the innocent, open me. but what i can i say? i am who i am today, because of the circumstances i've been through. sometimes i think i'm just a scaredy-cat, too afraid to stand up once i've been shoved down. oh well. time to flip the page, perhaps words will flow out easily on a fresh sheet of paper.

i just want to break free.

what would I give if I could live out of these waters?

what would I pay to spend a day warm on the sand?