all good things must come to an end.

this year, Christmas didn't feel like Christmas. at least not to me. maybe i was too preoccupied in perfecting everything i needed to complete, that somewhere along the way i lost the meaning of Christmas.. only to see it walk away from me, before my very eyes. i didn't even get to immerse myself in the Christmas spirit and now i've got to wait another year. perhaps i section off my life into too many compartments, that i accomplish it simply out of obligation, when i started off with that passion. but one thing's been running through my mind is the story of the little boy in the school play, who held his placard upside down, giving CHRIST WAS LOVE instead of CHRISTMAS LOVE. in the act of receiving presents and trying to reciprocate the gesture back, we lose the meaning of what Christmas is actually supposed to be.

life is all about a vicious circle, so another year is going to come and go. will you leave the year with regrets, upset because things didn't go your way? or will you smile because so many other good things happened? for every 101 things that you find you could gripe about, you'd find another 102 things you could praise God for.. you see, for all those 101 things that messedup, it could've been worse. it' all about perspective, the angle you view it from. life would always suck cos you're not the richest, prettiest, most handsome, most popular, smartest, most loved and the list could go on for eternity. but why not just try being content with what you've got, and be grateful for the people around you who love you as you are.

there are so many awesome things to be thankful for this year, if i could savour all the sweet moments that i've been blessed with and the heartiness of laughter that those close and dear to me, all over again, i would. everyone enters the year with resolutions, and a heart brimming with inner hopes and desires, more often than not, these resolutions change along the way as we feel it distancing away. sometimes we don't get what we want and we get bitter, our hope gets trampled on and our burning zest for the year ahead slowly fades into a lifeless flicker. and the cycle repeats itself. but for me, well, i'm going to breakout of that cycle.. somehow.

and i know that God is leading in a clear and certain way.