live life.

cny always bodes a happy mood, but my feelings are clearly depicted by the cold, sorrowful weather. albeit a wonderful comfy weather to snuggle up in bed, or cuddle up with a book and warm drink, it's a wonderful time to walk out there where noone sees your heartache.

e's passing just isn't a pleasant welcome for the lunar new year. i remember the happy times we shared, those where we'd sit around the canteen tables enjoying our days of youth filled with much laughter and stress-filled mugging. i fondly keep the memories of an e-birthday wish done by a great photo editting whiz. i always enjoyed reading those interllectual, and often humourous posts, that made me think a great deal.. it was a mutual respect for writings, sometimes admiration of wonderfully crafted pieces. i guess sometimes we shock ourselves with our ability. well, those would definitely be memories i'll hold dear.. the last and truly impactful words i got: "afterall, you only get to live just this once". how true, and chillingly apt. i daresay a "unique & fulfilling life" was led despite the presence of uncertainty. i'm glad for our paths that crossed and i thank God for the memories you've etched deep in the short 2 year span we shared.

it's an upcoming battle ahead. i never did like this season.. what with the sharing and splitting, you think i'm supergirl? there's only so much to how much you can wind me around your finger, and past that point i'm just not going to be able to do as you wish.
but i know i will not be given more than i can bear, and i am thankful for all the works You've done in my life, in this new year. i see Your fingerprints clearly as You mould me and shape out Your plan for me. so please Lord, do what you will and give me the strength to keep moving on.