bite. swallow. breathe. smile.

you took a part of me when you left. it will never be the same.

you made things right, or maybe.. you were the only right thing when everything in the world went wrong. but now what? who's gonna make things right now that things are so wrong?

they say i'm mad for not moving on, for clinging on so tight.. but how'd you cut off a part of your heart? how'd you move on and get on with life when life just isn't the same without that sunshine? nothing lasts forever, not even a memory. but till then, there's nothing that will fill that hole in me, that won't further cruelly stab the gaping wound. how'd you move on when the weight is like a ton of bricks weighing down hard? they don't get it, they never will.

regrets and i-should-haves flow like a neverending stream, but i accept the reality that there's nothing more i could have done. but it just doesn't remove the pain.. each time i think of the good times, the laughters, the absurdity, your stubborness and the last few hours i shared, the pain within your big brown eyes, the final brush of your furry head.. it just stabs deeper.

inexplicable. incomprehensible. insane (well that's what they think). only you'd get it. but... it's too late now..

bite your lip. swallow that lump. breathe the sorrow out. and flash a smile just so the world will think you're fine. that's what life's about.. no?

every friday's just another painful memory.