invisible.

feeling like i'm running a 400m sprint with olympians.. trying my best but not even coming close. they said we're a fast-paced society but i never knew, never believed we were this fast. it's so tiring not to be able to catch up.. to be running head on at full speed, ending the day fatigued and not even coming close to accomplishment. 

you were once my confidante, my pillar. now i'm learning to let go of that safety bar and start rolling along on my own. it's time to learn how to look forward, look ahead instead of continually turning back to see you've got my back. no expectations, no disappointments. 

the rise of technology brings the demise of communication - never thought there would come a day that i would admit the truth in that. but oh yes, it sure is true. we've been so wired to connect via technological gadgets that we simply suck at day-to-day verbal conversations. can't help but miss those good ol' dinosaur days.

should it be this hard? 

stop secretly hoping.