see, i'm smiling.

there's something about performances - plays, musicals, dances - that make me bubble with joy from within, makes me smile when i watch them. i'm happy that they succeeded in making in work, in sounding so good, looking so stunning; the moves in elegance, sharpness and style. maybe i connect with that facade, that moment of a show - drawing the audience into the emotions of what is meant to be.  maybe it's just me but oftentimes i get so immersed i start swimming in that world, with the lyrics that seem to apply to me, the moves and emotions that i've once experienced. i love watching dances - i miss those days where i had the guts to dance. okay, it wasn't the guts, it was the chance. the chance to be part of something, to dance for a reason. the energy, the feelings, the mood, the oomph. and i love lyrics. they inspire me, act as salve to soothe the soreness of the soul, a message of kindness telling me i'm not alone. other times, they make me smile and think back of happy times, times of bouncing joy that follow the staccato beat of the music. and the unuttered flutters.

with every beat of my heart.