obstinance.

watching something fall apart slowly is one of the hardest thing to do. how'd you watch pieces of someone's life crumble away in front of you? the person does nothing to salvage it and for every piece you catch, another piece on another corner falls to the ground and shatters. there is much truth in the phrase "no one can help you if you don't help yourself'. but perhaps it'd do you some good to know how much it hurts.

not every brick wall stands tall without a story to tell, in fact, take a look closer and you'll see the scars it bears. for all the rocks and broken glass and hammer fists, all these marks, marks of strength. even a brick wall will topple one day. every strong human being is prone to fall into an uncontrollable blubbering heap, only just a matter of when. i've promised myself i'd not break, well not in front of you anyway. i wish you'd know, wish you'd see, wish you'd hear, heck i wish you'd bother just a teeny tiny bit.


and each time i close my eyes, i pray for mercy, that one day you'll realise. perhaps you'll change. and each time i do, i'll remember Your grace. for You can produce water out of rock, perhaps You can melt a heart of stone.