everything is beautiful in its time.

Your timing is perfect. I know it will work out, just as it always has. The problem is, that knowledge doesn't make it any easier, I still get caught up in the pressures of the moment and feel like a stubborn elephant is on me, refusing to budge. 

When the demands of reality get to you, it's truly a feat to the feelings of inadequacy on top of fighting hard to get things done. I suppose unrealistic demands is part and parcel of life, whether in the workplace or out of it. We too, make unrealistic demands on people, even as we gripe that others demand the impossible of us.

People are people, people compare. That's the root of the problem. I'm guilty of that too, it's when i compare that "hey xxxx can get away with the bare minimum", that i get myself upset because i'm constantly compared against a higher bar.  Humans are funny creatures, they hate to be compared against another, but yet they innately compare themselves and others. It's a cyclical issue, one that has no root - pretty much like the question "which comes first, the chicken or the egg". I don't think there's truly a solution to the problem, it's an unfortunate reality that we have to deal with in our lifetime.

I'm comforted that i don't live by the standards of the world, and that perhaps i shouldn't keep trying so hard, or fighting so hard, because everything has a place and time and it will be beautiful in its time.

much easier said than done,

but i'm trying.