how i get through each week is like a pure miracle.. the fine handiwork of God. i dont how on earth i made it through the past week, it just flew right past my eyes. with special people coming in at various intervals to keep me going in this marathon, like those water-break stops. i'm dreading a a few days from now, it's gonna be a roller coaster all over again and i dont wish to be a hindrance yet again.
fatigue is catching on really fast, no matter how much i try to sleep early to recharge myself. i'm not even pushing myself and i'm feeling sluggish. i wake up feeling more or less recharged, and like a dying battery i'm half gone within a few hours. nothing to do with being a pig.
the stars up in the sky the past few nights have been really beautiful and allowed me to marvel at the wonder before i sleep every night. used to stargaze a lot when i was young cos there's a superb view (not at cool as india but well, good enough for me) here. then growing older made me think stargazing was stupid... afterall they are just stars. but recently, i found that stars give a new meaning to the night. when you see them twinkling up there, with a few visible constellations. it's when you know the world isn't as bad cos there's still the wonderful stars up in the night. in a way, i live through and get past a day in hope of seeing the stars at night. following the quote of Ralph Waldo Emerson: "When it is darkest, men see the stars". darkest has two meanings and i think it's true for both. in physical darkest, we can see stars cos they're one of the few things that give light in the darkness. in the darkest moments of your life too, if you feel there's noone there, the stars are up in the sky. to give comfort that at least there's some light present in your life.
at this particular juncture, i dont know what to do cos i'm simply fatigued to the point i'm running on adrenaline.
maybe it's just the aftermath?
fatigue is catching on really fast, no matter how much i try to sleep early to recharge myself. i'm not even pushing myself and i'm feeling sluggish. i wake up feeling more or less recharged, and like a dying battery i'm half gone within a few hours. nothing to do with being a pig.
the stars up in the sky the past few nights have been really beautiful and allowed me to marvel at the wonder before i sleep every night. used to stargaze a lot when i was young cos there's a superb view (not at cool as india but well, good enough for me) here. then growing older made me think stargazing was stupid... afterall they are just stars. but recently, i found that stars give a new meaning to the night. when you see them twinkling up there, with a few visible constellations. it's when you know the world isn't as bad cos there's still the wonderful stars up in the night. in a way, i live through and get past a day in hope of seeing the stars at night. following the quote of Ralph Waldo Emerson: "When it is darkest, men see the stars". darkest has two meanings and i think it's true for both. in physical darkest, we can see stars cos they're one of the few things that give light in the darkness. in the darkest moments of your life too, if you feel there's noone there, the stars are up in the sky. to give comfort that at least there's some light present in your life.
at this particular juncture, i dont know what to do cos i'm simply fatigued to the point i'm running on adrenaline.
maybe it's just the aftermath?
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