i'm supposed to be mugging but i'm not.

i feel detatched from them though i told myself i'd help.. be better.
so what if i don't show up? would it matter?
don't think so.

i'm starting to miss ulp alot alot.. from great trainers to mentees to scoldings to mouldy food to fast disappearin water to footdrill to latenights & early mornings to fatigue to campsite and the list just goes on.

i miss the madness of camp, having to literally think on your feet, watch bearing, carry image, be the role model.. all in the role of the VI whom as cadets you think your VI is amazingly inhuman.
you told me i wouldnt do well.. and i think you are right.
you told me i shouldnt have gone.. but i think you are totally wrong.
you told me i did well but i don't think so cos everything just ran by God's grace.
i miss you you you and you. alot alot.
i miss everyone at ulp.. all 30trainers and 84cadets.