ulp08.

this is the over-said but modified phrase by our batch (but it's so true):
2years ago, i was a cadet in ULP06.. in BRAVO3
2years later, i am a trainer in ULP08.. in ALPHA3
2 years down the road, i don't know where i'll be. but i just hope to give my best.

so it's over.

i would say i'm glad for the closure of endless nights of torture.. waiting aimlessly for the gmail inbox sign to show that i've received a mail.. feeling guilty for shooting them but yet at the same time really frustrated.

i'm glad that yirui and i tried our best and saw improvement during camp.. for some.. okay the some made up the majority of our pathetically small a3. but there was disappointment in some.

maybe i should have been more objective as a mentor.. more open.. more motivating.. more more more.
maybe i should have been less fierce.. less strict.. less pissed.. less less less.
well, you cant please everybody and that's for sure..so i guess i've got my regrets and i suppose i relish my achievements. i just hope to feel more accomplished next time.. if there is a future next time.

i would say that the challenge as indeed pushed us to grow more, reach higher, push further.. aim for the stars, only to get a whiff of the cold night air. but nevertheless, the experience gained from this in truly great, moulding us into better trainers. just via the hard way. i suppose you cant gain anything if the road's all smooth and easy.

the food sucked. and the caterer's blacklisted for life. i supposed it's fine for trainers alone.. but with the responsibility to care for cadet's health.. it's dangerous to trust that fungi standard.

the peak of the camp i must say in unfortunately not the bonding with the cadets, but the bonding with trainers. it's really fun to get to know so many people so much better afterall as cadets we had very little contact with trainers having had no VIs. knowing so many many seniors and seeing the funny side really kept me going. the fun and laughter shared with batchmates.. the embarrassment.. teasing.. encouragements.. whacks.. pokes.. and hugs. xiaoyuan ma'am's laughter is the ultimate.. and jingni ma'am's damn funny too with all the 'YAs'.. i found that derek sir makes a really good imitator but a really scary one too. i think joan ma'am will forever remind me as apollo.. hahaha.. and i don't know how that sentence came out of my mouth but it just did. i don't wanna get 18cartons worth of apollo next year! haha.

learning tukar haluan from jianfu sir was really fun and refreshing since we havent touched footdrill in eons. so fun to timing and bang and march and stand in a squad with batchmates and seniors (: i think the command's really cool too..

for alpha.. i think we did well as a platoon and alpha trainers rocked!
mizael sir was damn damn funny and the drawing thing cracked huiling and i up.. i think he really really helped us along alot alot. evonne ma'am also gave a lot of encouragement and i was really thankful for tt especially when the numbers dropped again and i really wanted to break down and throw in the towel. shwuyueh ma'am was one lifesaver.. helping me coax and encourage when i couldnt find anyone bigger at all. stephen was super funny.. with the bouncing story and all.. and though his bag didnt save me, it was still damn funny.. think i would have rolled down to dunno where if he didnt hold on. daphne ma'am too.. 2years ago i was her mentee, 2years later i'm a fellow trainer.. very cool and fulfilling working with her though she's still really quiet. huiling was a real funny encouragement and stuff.. with all her funny expressions.. it really kept me going. last but definitely not least was yirui.. my fellow penguin who persevered on with me and helped me in our last plot, in the encouragement to get them moving.. in making sure they have proper bearing etcetc. yay.

our trainers performance rocked the campfire.. the short time we had but the cooperation, connection, willingness and enthusiasm we all had made the whole thing a success. the remote yirui and i put together was really damn cool but i didnt get a chance to take photo of it. oh well.. the performance will remain in our minds for a long long time. have we got a show for you: everybody loves kungfu fighting and like to move it move it move it and VIs love makes the world go round (: just like how we thrashed them for captain's ball.. leaving the record unbroken where VIs never lose a single match to cadets.

so i've jumped, caught a handful of dust and a single star.. landed on both aching feet.. gained alot.. hung on there.. knocked out after 5long days.
and after a good long rest.. i think i'm ready to go learn more, teach more, train more and gain more (: