in life, things are bound drag to you down.. to just tire you out. like how things have been going since vietnam. the lack of sleep and disrupted hours have just translated into a jaded delirium where fatigue eats into you and the feeling is beyond words, in the negative way. inertia has just passed me the entry card into insanity.

a smile covers everything, makes everything seem fine. a shower wakes you up, only for several moments. a pinch reaffirms reality, just for the few seconds. but nothing removes the weight inside - that force that pulls your eyelids down and the stars you see cos your brain is like a battery going flat.

sometimes, we just need:
someone to listen, someone to hug, someone to lend a shoulder, someone to be there, someone to say nothing at all, someone to subtly pull you out of that deep dark hole, someone to lean on...
but sometimes, humans aren't always there because our strength alone is insufficient to overcome worldly pressures we ourselves struggle with. earthly friends will come and go, even the closest to your hearts cant always be there. but there's one who'll never let you down... and i think this poem says it all.

Lean On Me
(Author Unknown)

As the road ahead seems rugged
and the path is getting steep,
I feel that I can't make it
so my heart begins to weep.

Then I turn to see who's coming
to join me on my way.
I see it is my Lord
and He slowly turns to say,

"Lean on me.....
when you have no strength to stand.
When you feel you're going under,
hold tighter to my hand.

Lean on me......
when your heart begins to bleed.
When you know I'm all you have,
then you'll find I'm all you need."

Then when I felt that no one cared
if I lived or died,
and no one bothered asking why
I'd go alone to cry.

When the burden got so heavy
I could barely face the day,
I felt His arms around me
as I gently heard Him say,

"Lean on me......
when you have no strength to stand.
When you feel you're going under,
hold tighter to my hand.

Lean on me......
when your heart begins to bleed.
When you come to know I'm all you have,
then you'll find I'm all you need."

a broken spirit and a contrite heart,
you will not despise, you will not despise.
you desire truth in the inwards parts,
a broken spirit and a contrite heart.