and weeks crawl, days walk, hours run, minutes sprint and seconds whoosh past...
long bus rides let my mind reel back into past, back to the goodness and grace along the way. ups and downs alike, good times, fun times and even miserable ones. the people who've been there for me, the people who have moved along.. but one thing stays constant. the omnipresent omniscient.
i don't get why things must be this way. changing for someone, giving up your ideals and happiness for one person. letting people hang loose in the lurch. if only i could put it down. leave the past behind. stop hoping that you'll turn around and come back for me. because you've moved on. i could run and chase till i've caught up with you. but that connection... could never form that spark to reignite the flame again. memories will be etched, but i'm not waiting in the past anymore.
the feeling's really surreal now that i've learnt to grapple with the matter. maybe i should have done it a long time back? i wonder if it would have been easier? but i just thank God for His grace and mercy, placing various people at pitstops in my life. special people who'd run that stretch of the race with me, to pull me back to my feet when i fall, to lend me support when i'm weary.
QT today showed how He gave us breath. we should look around at marvels of our universe with all beauty, grandeur and eloquence and then, breathless, proclaim his majesty.
how could i forget His love
how could i forget His mercies
how could i forget His mercies
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