and everlasting joy is my raison d’être.

Sweet, sweet sound (Sarah Reeves)
I am an instrument of the living God
My life a melody to His name
More than the songs I sing
Worship is everything
I live to glorify my King

Through all the mire and clay
You're washing me with grace
You carry me, oh Lord, through it all
So I will testify even in the fire
I live to praise my Savior

Hear the song of my life
Let it be a sweet, sweet sound
Let it be a sweet, sweet sound
I raise this anthem high
Let it be a sweet, sweet sound
Let it be a sweet, sweet sound

i don't want to learn it the hard way again, lose the grip and bond i once had. i want to keep growing and being a living testimony. the sudden realization of neglect dawned on me and i want to press the stop button before that rollercoaster zooms down the steep slope and the journey up would be arduously and painfully long.
carnal happiness is transient. sure, it puts you at the top of the bubble in your own little bubble of bliss. but it won't last. learn to let go. learn to commit. it soothes the anguish. but i'm still learning.