life can only be understood backward, but it must be lived forward .

a simple human. i distinctly rmb that stick like figure, drawn with a simplicity of strokes, yet the picture exudes felicity. it's puzzling how something so plain could bring out joy. but then again, perhaps tt's how we were all made to be - simple creatures of joy. but us, being us, had to complicate everything.

deep breath. feel the breeze.. pause for fresh air before you pick up pace again and dash the sprint. i wanna sweat it out.. empty any remaining energy left before refueling back to full tank. today i let loose and let go.. had truckloads of fun.. but something's still missing. with every pause i take, i look around and smile. a smile of happiness for those who've gone along ahead to pursue their dreams, a smile of thankfulness for those by my side, and a smile of sadness of those i've left behind for they've chose to walk along a different route. and the leaves of memory makes a mournful rustling in the dark.

one day, when i flip the pages of the dusty album, i'll find your face right there in that little corner, faded away so faint till it almost seems to have disappeared. the traces that remain are simply the sweet memories that linger on, for when it was so real, i never thought it'd change - change into something that pierces through with every flashback. maybe that's why i've shut that book for good. i've moved on. you always told me to move on and not live in the past, but the past was where i belonged, because it moulded me to be me. i've come to learn that i belong in the present. i've sealed that book tight, only to be reopened when i'm done with the present, and entering the future. then i'll look back and reminisce good times, but yet i'll be done hoping that it'll replay. cos i'd have realised that i've got through the present without you and i can walk on without wanting to grab your hands. i'll just be glad that you were once in my life.. in the past, that moulded me, and taught me lessons so fine. auf wiedersehen adieu.

Psalm 119:10-16 has been, is, and always will be a timely reminder.

whatever comes our way
we'll see it through