supercalifragilisticexpialidocious.

gaze into the starry night and you'll find solace therein.
and if you can't find the stars, it's because i've sealed them tight in a bottle close to my heart.
it's the start of a frenzied spiral into hardcore academics. the last few weeks of focus on meritocracy and intellect dawned on me like a nasty wake-up call. yes, i do know the implications, but the impact still surges through nonetheless. the competition's stiff and not everyone begins on the same start line, some have an edge while others are disadvantaged. some fall back along the way while others catch up. somewhere along the way, you meet people who will shove you aside, trample over you and then there are those who pick you up and pace with you. this is yet another arduous uphill phase that many will soon tire while some will soar with dignity. i will run the race with tenacity and i know You'll be right beside me, ready to catch me when i fall and pull me to my feet. You've granted me peace right till this quarter mark and i have faith that it will continue.
time is crawling slower than a loris.. a snail could stroll three times round the block and only a minute would have past. as long as it may seem, it's a test of strength and willpower. we will pull through.

everything to me - He's more than a story, more than words on a page of history
i know why i need to go fish but it's so hard. it really is. but 'because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything', i will press on.

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. John 14:27
40days feels like nothing but plain eternity.

and between now and then,
till i see you again,
i'll be loving you.
love, me.