juxtaposition.

Yet to all who received Him, to those who believed in His name,
He gave the right to become children of God.
John 1:12

i'm drifting. and i know it. why's it so hard to be disciplined, to set aside time? we can all set time aside for friends, for people we love, for ourselves, but we just can't seem to set aside time with God. i can't wait for kalimantan, it'll be a time of reflection and my way of saying i'm sorry and trying to right the wrong that i've made. but there's just so much to do and so little time, with the amount of logs that we've gotta settle and carry, you'd need 10 supermans (and we've only got 3 dudes). watching that lifehouse skit, i feel like that girl. torn away from happiness by all the worldly indulgences and carnal desires. i think the fastpaced life here does us little good. i pray mission WK will serve as a spiritual revival as we reach out to kids and to the people. my doubts are abound as i wonder if i'll be able to converse with skills partially and subtly honed since i was 4?

it's funny how i look back at past compositions written with so much feelings, intricately laid out as solace to the soul. i hope i'll get inspiration to write a happier piece, to start afresh and reflect the joys in life.

everyone has 24 hours, some get by quite easily with extra time to spare, others struggle and fight with the cruel time that ticks on relentlessly. i try to manipulate time, making it work for the better. sometimes i triumph, sometimes i fail. but i will carry on and make the best of it lest i lose those precious seconds with the people who mean most to me. and i'm not letting dance go either, 0908 will revive the spirit.

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