cold feet.

i'm not as elated as i should be, neither am i bouncing up and down in excitement. it seems like the excited anticipation has died down and i'm apprehensive of the adjustments that are to come. i've been jaded. things are at a standstill. i need to alter the mindset and take things into perspective. it'll be fun and i know i'll love it.
i just hope i won't freeze.

sometimes, i wonder how many more valleys, plateaus and rocks lie ahead. i ponder hard about everyday life because we seem to be nothing more than mere game pieces. i feel... tired and foolish, as if I had been running to escape someone chasing me, only to look behind and discover there was no one there (Jing-mei Woo, JLC).

Eric Liddel: "Circumstances may appear to wreck our lives and God's plans, but God is not helpless among the ruins. Our broken lives are not lost or useless. God comes in and takes the calamity and uses it victoriously, working out his wonderful plan of love."

how true.

till then... (: