in Your never failing love, You work everything for good.

there are many things in life for which we lack explanations for.. why certain opportunities slip by us but drop straight into others' hands, why certain misfortunes are avoided while others tragically hit.. we can't wrap our heads around the thousand and one things that pass by, and we'd go mad just trying to grapple with a fraction of these mysteries. but for me, that's where faith comes in.

many a time life feels like a tetris challenge, we try so hard trying to manipulate circumstances into our favour that we're overwhelmed by falling tiles in just a jiffy. we fail to see the bigger picture. and those darned tiles just won't stop falling. that's pretty much life, you can't stop the ticking seconds. you can always pause a tetris game, re-attempt a challenge, throw the game aside, but you can't do that with life because everyone keeps moving even if you're taking a break, we can't turn back time to retry or hit a new highscore. you can throw in the towel, but then that actually takes more guts. my tetris tiles have adhered so strongly to gravity, it's such a challenge just settling them in a gap just so i wouldn't top-out. but then, suddenly, the tiles start slowing down and falling into the right places and i've time to breathe and re-focus and get back into the game. why? after all that mess? what's changed?

an intriguing thought was shared a couple of nights ago. when things go wrong, we look for explanations and say "why me?!?!" but when things go well, we're quick to take the credit and say *with extra emphasis on the very first word* "I earned this". it's nice to think the winds have changed and the weather's in my favour, but i know it's not that simple. life may have many mysteries and to each his own belief, but i choose to know that better plans have been set aside. while i may not comprehend how the dampening of hopes only to reignite it again actually works out, i'm waiting and learning patience. because patience is a virtue.

in Your everlasting arm
all the pieces of my life
from beginning to the end

i can trust You.