G.R.A.C.E.

i stand before You and i am amazed
i see Your beauty displayed in everything You do

grace - an unmerited favour showered upon those who acknowledge the truth and surrender. but this phrase, that forms the acronym of the word "grace", puts it even more beautifully and succinctly: God's Riches At Christ's Expense. a generous morsel to ruminate and savour.

as the year comes to an end, it's one of mixed feelings. turns out, this chapter is a mere transition into one of greater depth and volume. to take the leap of faith or not?  i am determined not to let history repeat itself, at the same time, if i let my intrinsic nature take control, i know i shall be the hermit that i will regret. am i willing set aside my fears and take this chance to experience life? am i willing to put a relationship i hold very dear to a big test, where both triumph and failure, would significantly change the course of the future (in very different directions of course)? am i ready to step out of this comfort zone and truly be independent and finally grow up?

i've never been more fearful and apprehensive yet excited at this rare opportunity that has been placed before me. this very circumstance has, sadly, brought to light some true colours. and it is this very mind-boggling pain that dampens the excitement of it all. and somehow, this time, i don't believe in letting it off my chest because no good will come out of it even if i let it off. so i can only pray for grace and let Him lead. no matter what comes out of this, i guess i'll have to close my eyes and trust.

and i reach out,
receive Your endless love