chapter closure.

i once penned "distance makes the heart grows fonder, but neglect has its price". i resolved not to follow in the footsteps of others, but to rather carve out my own path. time waits for no man, and though i did not expect anything to wait for me, i certainly did not anticipate for time to have taken such a toll. i pushed along while others left the path, because it felt right then. but now, i daresay my time is up.

8 long years. it's time for a farewell. though i will no longer physically be in service, it will still be an integral part of my heart, and life. i'm grateful to have been taught how to lead with pride.

it's time to take a step back, to breathe, and to recharge. i've not played by my own rules recently, and so have failed to perform to the best of my abilities. i did my best, the best for the situation, yet in all honesty, i'm sorely disappointed at my incoherence and incompetence. i wish, i truly wish, i could have done better.

i wish there was a rewind button.

but then again, i couldn't possibly put myself through it again.

so incoherent, i don't get myself sometimes.