raindrops on roses.

how easy it is to pass over the little bumps of life if we are happy inside (raggedy ann)

what lies behind us, and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us. (ralph waldo emmerson)

so we'll just walk alongside, hand in hand, no matter what comes our way.

it's been a week after mueller and time has indeed flown by in a blink of an eye. mueller has really opened my eyes and spoken to me. i really enjoyed every single show and i'm so thankful to all the fellow men-in-black who oriented me to the stage in chopchop time. i think i've fallen in love with every song, that has been so beautifully composed in the most amazing way possible.

A Walk Of Faith
(Mueller: A Walk of Faith)

Leaping forth into the unknown
Hopes and fears intermingling in my soul
There was so much work for the task at hand
Yet sometimes questioning if my heart was there

Step by step, You have been there
You've gone before me, You've been my rear guard
What can I say, as I look back now my Lord?
You've planned all my days on this walk of faith

So use us for your glory, we surrender to Your hand
As Your glory rise, we're all so amazed
We're all so amazed, on this walk
This walk of faith!

the bulk of everyday life revolves around the office. work is not brought back home, it only requires recharging for the new day ahead. part of me embraces work life but the other part hungers for more fulfilment. it seems that school tasks you with academic responsibilities that you need to fulfill and gives me a sense of direction.

so many things are in the unknown. i wonder why i used to question a smooth road. now that i've sought direction, it seems to have become a little more winding. it's hard to stay strong when you see things crumble before your eyes. i don't know if the answer is yes, no or wait. but i know i'll be strong, because there are far better plans ahead. the plans He has for us will open doors. results' jitters are slowly eating into me. i'm paranoid and i know it. but once bitten twice shy, i've fallen hard before and nothing i do will brace me for another fall that hard. confidence is key, but over-confidence beckons a downfall. just praying for a peace of mind and acceptance.

faith is that i must surrender.